After opening up (somewhat) to a potential suitor we can be struck with the OH NO syndrome.
The OH NO what have I DONE this time syndrome.
Sure, "they say" we’re never happy if we don’t take risks, but what about if we do and then we regret it... a lot?
I’m wondering if my reaction (panic) is “normal” or riddled with warning…
Because after recently letting my guard down I immediately had a nightmare.
I had a nightmare that Mr. Guy-Who-Made-Me-Open-Up was married.
In my dream, he also had 2 children, one of whom was 10 years old (how do people hide that sort of thing)??? His wife looked like the opposite of me... tall, brunette, and super thin.
And after I showed up at his house and demanded an answer...
he calmly told me that it didn’t matter if I knew or not because I was disposable.
I drove off, peeling out of his driveway crying
and telling myself I’d NEVER do THAT again.
Needless to say, I woke up wondering...
was this dream evidence of trust issues
or a warning to trust my instincts?
(I’m shaking my magic-8 ball as we speak, but what do YOU think)?